Through much deliberation and anticipation, I have finally deleted every single deviation I have ever put up under this account. I have never felt so free in my life. I barely saved any hard copies of anything on this account and I'll tell you why.
I am growing up. Everything I have written had been in angst; angry, confused, upset and trapped. I no longer feel that way. Sure, I have my days once in a while, but I have never felt as beautiful and free as I do now. I rather much capture that and my passion, than my emotional break downs and teenage angst. I don't feel the way I did. I look back on some of my stuff, and I never really understand, now, how I could be so blind to so many things. Especially him. This one guy I met when I was 12. He is a monster and I really do hate him. The thing is, I'm getting past that. I'm leaving everything behind. Although I am leaving my baggage behind, I do not leave behind my lessons and knowledge that I have found.
Sure enough, I do not have any regrets, because everything that I did, I wanted to. I made the choice to get involved in whatever I chose to do. It has made me into the person I am today, and quite frankly, I really do love myself the way I am today. I hope to grow more and more everyday; loving and feeling every single day. May it be anger, happiness, angst, anxiety, joy, laughter or confusion. Whatever it is, I am willing to endure, head first, learning and getting past it.
Through much deliberation and consideration, I am handing in my writer's pen. I will no longer write. I don't feel the need to expose/exploit myself the way I did. I have hurt myself trying to write, and writing just to hurt. I wrote about how I hurt and the way I hurt. No one took notice and you know what? That doesn't bother me. I just don't feel the need to write.
All in all, I want to thank you all for your support. I am grateful and thankful for those who watch me and read my stuff. Love it or hate it, it was great of you to take time out of your life just to read mine. I just don't have the words to explain the way I feel about your support. Thank you so much.

If you would still like to watch me, please go see: [link] or search me under Vanillya in deviantart.

Also, I don't plan on watching many people. God knows I can't keep up.

So... the finale.

Through much deliberation, consideration and anticipation, I am terminating CrazzyButterfly within two weeks. Just like the band Finch [link], I have many reasons for my decision and my priorities have changed. I have changed as a person. I cannot express the gratitude to those who just even considered my work. Thank you so much for reading my life and my teenage angst. I think this is the one battle that I have won. Today was the day I killed my own teenage angst.
My curtains have closed and I have slipped out through the back door. <3

Farewell and Goodnight.

Signed,

Ms. Chui Ying

Vanillya